Well listen if you want to stay super positive and you're looking for something uplifting

this probably isn't your episode I'm just going to be honest because I'm already feeling

like a little emotional before I even start recording so I just want to give you that

heads up alright because you are in charge of your day you're in charge of your mental

state so please if you need something uplifting there's so many fun podcasts I've done

in the past there's other people's podcasts you can listen to you can even put on a playlist

alright you've been sufficiently warned please put on your seatbelt we are in the car

and we are going for a ride

well part of me wants to just assume like maybe I'm about to give my period maybe that's

why I feel this way and then also another part of me is like and maybe you're just refusing

to admit that you're a human being and not giving yourself permission to just feel things

and this is so complicated it just is because the part of me feels like if I get bummed

out then I let the monster win or like I'm giving him some of my power and that pisses

me off p.s there may be some f-bums or other adult language in this episode because I just

need to get this out it's not very often that I feel this way dang it but I do and it's Thursday

night that I'm recording this and I had my I've had one previous consultation for the

revisions that I need for the plastic surgeries that were messed up by the doctor that I went

to last August so if you're unfamiliar with the story where have you been and if you've just

tuned into my podcast it's like a whole thing and I'll put like probably the best podcast

for you to go back and listen to to get kind of caught up and to like hear the backstory

if you're interested you could also look at my Instagram highlights I've got some stuff there

but I'm just going to assume you already know the story if you haven't then put me on pause

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