Get it, the bird show.

I think we've talked about this before, like when you get this close to the wedding, like it's really tough to tell what's cold feet and what's, oh my God, I'm about to make the biggest mistake of my life. I know this person is wrong for me. And what was our defining point? I don't know what the defining point was, but I know a couple of women who walked down the aisle and they knew on that day that they shouldn't have been doing it. But like, doesn't every, I mean, not everybody, but don't me, most people you think just have like, am I sure I want to do this? Am I sure I want to do this? And that line between cold feet and we did have a definition. Really having a gut feeling that this is never going to work, I shouldn't do it. It's such a fine line that day.

Because didn't you call your ex that day?

I did. I was really, really nervous all the way up to like the, I have walked down the aisle. And you don't know because you're so close to getting married and it's such a big deal and you've got so many thoughts going through your head and you can't make sense of any of it. It's all the pressure of all the families coming in and everybody, you know, all the hooplauos surrounding it all. And Brenda might be in the same place. She's on the voice disguiser right now. Hey, Brenda. Hey, good morning. Good morning. We don't want to give away too many details here because obviously even the thought probably

will be offensive to the guy you're going to marry.

But what's going through your head and when are you supposed to get married?

Tomorrow.

Okay.

All right.

Yeah, tomorrow.

And tonight around six-ish we have the rehearsal and then rehearsal dinner around 730 so um yeah

and it's not for me I feel like it's not cold feet I just don't know what to do because

now everything it's about to happen you know people are flying in people

have already come in um from California from New York it's just yeah I mean it's it's it's not a

small little ceremony it's it's the you're having a we we're having a, you know, just a pretty good-sized wedding.

We've spent thousands of dollars, you know, everyone in my family is involved.

It's just, I'm really overwhelmed because I know it's not just cold feet and I just started having a feeling and I

just didn't know how to get out of it. When did the feeling of not wanting to do this start?

In a brown one I guess when he asked me I was already like oh me but this is a good

time this is a great guy why not you know it's time to settle down. But, you know, and I thought it was just me and wanting my independence, but it's not, it's not even that. It's just, I don't, I really don't think he's the right guy for me. Just little things, you know, with the traveling, I guess I don't want to get too specific, but...

Now, how long were y'all engaged?

Haven't been a year yet.

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