I was always paranoid maybe that's why I like the song so much and listen I'm

not talking about being clinically pathologically paranoid which is what

happens when people have an irrational extreme distrust of people or they

have an internal passionate belief that the world is conspiring against them

they think everyone around them is plotting on them and it drives them crazy

right they go insane so I'm not talking about that type of paranoia but in my

life I've always had a certain level of paranoia like a low level of

paranoia in my head and I think I actually know I know it's

always kind of helped me I was paranoid I'd forget a piece of gear so I double

check my kit make sure triple check my kit make sure I have all my stuff I was

paranoid about being late so I set multiple alarm clocks one electric one

battery powered one wind up I was paranoid I'd run out of time with things

so I wouldn't slack off I was always paranoid I was gonna fail in whatever

thing I was trying to do I was always paranoid is gonna fail so I practiced and

I prepared more I was always kind of paranoid that my competition or my

enemy was training or working harder than me so I worked even harder and

trained even more than I imagined they could be I was felt paranoid that I didn't

deserve to be promoted I didn't deserve to be in a leadership position and that

kept me humble I was actually paranoid always that I'd run out of money so I

never spent more than I earned I was just a little paranoid about everything but

that kept me focused that kept me working hard it made me show up early made me

stay late I didn't forget things because I had checked I never slept in and I

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