I Have Postpartum Depression, and I’m Still Struggling to Find My Way Out
After Bedtime with Big Little Feelings
Dear Media and Big Little Feelings
4.5 • 5.8K Ratings
🗓️ 11 March 2026
⏱️ 49 minutes
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Summary
This is one of the most vulnerable conversations we’ve ever had on the podcast. In this episode, Deena shares something deeply personal: her experience with postpartum depression after the birth of her third baby. What started as exhaustion and overwhelm slowly turned into something heavier, constant tears, crushing shame, and dark thoughts she never imagined she would have as a mom.
If you’ve ever felt like you’re failing at motherhood… like everyone else is coping better than you… like your brain is telling you lies about who you are as a parent, this episode is for you. Together, Kristin and Deena talk honestly about what postpartum depression actually feels like from the inside, the warning signs that something wasn’t right, and the moment Deena realized she needed help. They also talk about the power of saying the scary thoughts out loud, the role of support from partners and friends, and the steps that helped Deena begin to find her way back.
In this episode, you’ll hear:
• What postpartum depression can actually look like in real life
• The thoughts many struggling moms are too ashamed to say out loud
• Why postpartum depression has nothing to do with being a “good” or “bad” mom
• How to recognize when it’s time to reach out for help
• The small steps that can start the path toward feeling better
If you are struggling, please know this: there’s nothing wrong with you, you are not alone, and help is out there. This conversation is raw, honest, and ultimately hopeful, because no mom should have to carry this alone. You can also contact Postpartum Support International (they have free helplines, tests, and local providers). If you’re in immediate danger, call or text 988 in the U.S. If you’re elsewhere, your local emergency number can connect you to crisis support.
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| 0:00.0 | The following podcast is a dear media production. |
| 0:05.4 | Friends, welcome back to After Bedtime. |
| 0:08.3 | Today's episode is one of the most vulnerable conversations I've ever had on this podcast. |
| 0:13.9 | I'm sharing about my recent experience with postpartum depression, the moments I couldn't |
| 0:18.5 | stop crying, the thoughts I was ashamed to admit, and how I finally |
| 0:22.6 | realized I couldn't do this alone and did need help. And I get to share this all with my best friend, |
| 0:27.8 | Kristen, who's been by my side through all of this. And while it's a little scary to share all |
| 0:32.6 | of this for me, if it helps even just one person who's been through this is going through this or feels like |
| 0:40.1 | they're failing and everyone else has it together except for you in some way, well, then me sharing |
| 0:44.6 | it feels completely worth it. So let's jump into it. |
| 0:49.4 | Welcome to after bedtime, where the house is finally quiet, but the real noise begins. The thoughts, |
| 0:56.5 | the questions, the wondering if you're doing any of this right. We're Kristen and Dina, |
| 1:01.5 | child behavior experts, moms, and co-founders of big little feelings. And we're not here |
| 1:06.6 | to give you more pressure or perfect parenting energy. Nope. We're here to tell the truth, the unfiltered, |
| 1:12.7 | beautiful, brutal truth about what it means to raise kids and re-raise ourselves in the process. |
| 1:18.8 | Because parenting isn't just about sleep schedules and snack hacks. It's about healing. It's about breaking |
| 1:24.1 | cycles. It's about becoming the kind of adult you want your kids to grow up to be. This is the place where we say the quiet parts out loud, and we're so glad that you're here. Dina, my love, the love of my life. Kristen. The love of my life. Oh, I'm glad we're not in the same room, though, together. I'm going to be honest. |
| 1:45.4 | I smell so bad. I did a workout, didn't have time to shower, and, like, you would not enjoy this. I don't know that I care. Do you think I care? No, but it wouldn't be fair to you. Right. You can put it that way. You are one of those people, actually. I think that's a myth that many people would not know from social media |
| 2:03.4 | is that you are not so much the type A that's like everything needs to be clean. |
| 2:10.6 | Everything needs to be organized. |
| 2:11.6 | And you're like a worker outer in the morning and then not shower. |
| 2:16.3 | Yeah. |
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