There is no amount of love that you can give to someone else while not also giving that to you.

How can I expose so much of the capabilities of love to someone and put all of that indulging love on them and I can't love myself back?

That's an oxymoron.

What kind of feeling is that?

Can I tell you something? You know, many times we are so hard on ourselves, beating ourselves up over and over again, maybe for the mistakes that we made or the way we feel like we need to show up in our lives or just putting a whole bunch of pressure on ourselves that is unnecessary until we get ourselves in the tizzy

and we begin to become depressed. We align our minds with things that we read and things that we

see comparing our journeys to others and also not showing up as our authentic self because somehow we feel our authentic self

is not a good enough self compared to what the world is showing us. There is difficulty in just

sometimes being ourselves because being ourselves means that we have to be honest with who we are. And many times

even in your greatness, you know, by the eyes of other people and the love that other people

show you and just by the connection of what they have for you, you don't love and honor yourself

completely. Because you didn't give yourself grace for

the things you experienced in your life or the things that you felt in your being or the things

that you are still wrestling with in your soul.

On a personal note, I

brung my own self down

by the perfections that I felt like I

needed to create as a woman,

as a wife, as a mother, as a friend.

And if it didn't constitute

to the level of perfectionism, I crumbled.

Because I felt in many areas in my life, I needed to be so much for people because I often didn't feel that people were that way with me.

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