Get it the birth show. I need you guys to help me with my sadness.

Okay. And that means I need you guys to help me be sad.

Oh you need a cry day? That's exactly what I'm

talking about Kristen. Oh he needs a cry day. That's exactly what I'm talking about. I

used to laugh at Kristen when she used to detail for me these crazy-ass cry days she used it where she

forces herself to cry looking at herself in a mirror waiting to cry and then

watching the tears slowly rolled down her face with somehow some way like very cathartic for you.

It was it still is and so and Abby I don't wipe the tears because I like to leave the

trails of sadness down my face and you

know how it gets a little tight after like the tears dry? Oh yeah it's like a free

facelift. Yep. And so it's actually it my cry days are tactical cries because I don't want to be out in the

wild and not being able to control my emotions like everything builds up and

it's pent up and then all of a sudden one little small thing happens and then I have a cry somewhere where I don't need to be crying.

So I purposely would schedule having a cry at home in the comfort of my my own home so I had control over a set cry.

So this would be like on your Google calendar like cry days, Tuesday the 19th or whatever.

You just gotta like you feel and you know when everything's brewing and it's about to come

to a head and so you just have to intervene but you don't have anything at

that moment to trigger it so you have to listen to sad music or watch a sad movie

or find sad clips online that would elicit a cry and then once

the floodgates are open you're good to go. I wish I could do that because I

have like emotional IBS most days I feel very like

emotionally constipated like I'm just kind of here and then one day out of nowhere I'm just

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