Hello, why do I always do that? Hello and welcome to this episode of the ESG Fitness

Podcast. I hope everyone is very well. I spoke last week about perfectionism and procrastination.

And that episode got a lot of love and it seemed to resonate with a lot of people so thank you

very much for that and I'm glad it was useful in a useful way to think through how you think

about certain things what I want to talk about today is that that isn't always how perfectionism

manifests it sometimes isn't so much that it holds you back, but that it

stops you enjoying the outcome because you're always picking that outcome apart. So, for example,

does this situation or this sort of thought process sound like you? Would you do something and then if it goes well, immediately move the goalposts?

So like you achieve, I don't know, say like you achieve your first five push-ups,

but then you decide that five push-ups, like as soon as you achieve that goal, five push-ups is crap. I would need to get 10 to be even anywhere near, quote-unquote, good.

Or I really wanted to lose five pounds and I lost five pounds and I was like, I need to lose

at least 10 pounds to be anywhere near where I want to be. Or I thought I was happy earning X amount of money,

but now as soon as I get anywhere near that, I immediately move the goalpost so that I don't celebrate

that success. I just move to the next thing. It's a way of never allowing yourself to be good enough.

Or you do appreciate being able to earn X amount, for example,

but you attribute that to luck, or you attribute the success to luck as opposed to your hard work

or your effort.

And yet, if it didn't go well, that's when

you choose to internalise it. So basically, if it does go well, it must be due to something else

that's complete luck. But if it doesn't go well, that's on you. That's 100% your fault. So if you do

really well on a test and you get an A plus,

you attribute that success to the luck of those questions coming up. Like it definitely wasn't the hours of

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