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I don't know what month it is. I don't know what year it is. Oh, wait, it's 2020,

the clusterfuck of all years. Remember around January when I was like, 2020 is my fun year.

I'd like to file an extension because it's not working out according to plan. But you know what,

that's life. I'm not going to sit here and complain. I'm going to try not to sit here and complain.

It's getting really hard. Here's the deal. I am painfully wildly delusional and very annoyingly so

glass half full, but not in a positive way in a way that minimizes people's feelings, including

and I woke up this morning and I looked at the date and you know, I had this like heart pang,

which I don't usually get during moments of tragedy. I'm definitely someone who like puts on my

boots and just like trudges through shit at, you know, a forceful, forceful speed. Like it's

more, it's less strong and it's more about just avoidance for me. So I don't want to like put

myself on a pedestal here because actually it's very counterproductive long term. But I'm someone

who's just like tunnel vision, tunnel vision, keep moving forward, ignore, delusion. And I woke

up this morning and I looked at the day and I thought, huh, right about now I would be headed to

the desert to go to Palm Springs to watch our friend headline at fucking stage coach with all of

my best friends and my best friends, baby, who I haven't seen in months, who's in Nashville,

who I want to literally, I want to drive to Nashville. I want to bite the shit out of this baby,

kick her, eat her and then drive home. Like I can't even look at pictures of her because it kills

my heart and my friends and you know, you think about in terms of what you would have done in the

past month. And I realize that me and Andrew, we don't really sit still and we've kind of designed

our lives to not sit still, you know, we travel all the fucking time. Just in this past month,

I would have been to Nashville. Andrew would have, I was maybe going to go to the masters with

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