Hello, hello hello, good morning, how you doing?

Hi, I'm pretty nervous, but do you know right?

Yes, no, I'm terrifying. I get that.

Okay, every time I look in the mirror in the morning, I'm like, ah!

So now I get that understandable, very intimidating, most terror. So we'll do our best to work past it and cross her fingers.

So, all right. Do you want to read the message? What would you like to do to start?

Okay, so, it says, I have been in conflict within myself for the past three months.

I do not know how to move forward. I defood from both my parents and my twin sister in 2020.

It was really hard I I was miserable at times poor for a while

and struggled with a feeling safe for a long time. I was immensely grateful to have my brother motivate me and emotionally support me through it all.

He even introduced me to the love of my life with whom I now have a lovely baby with.

This past year he has met a woman who seems to be the love of his own.

He moved halfway across the world to be with her and now we live far away because of it.

I am dealing with familiar feelings of abandonment and a profound pain.

It feels that part of my world has changed from the great cozy and wholesome life we had.

I feel shocked with the change and I'm stuck in a cycle of wanting to enjoy my first year of

motherhood versus feeling the painful reminder with every milestone that my brother isn't here to share,

and as well as feelings of self-doubt and guilt.

I struggle a lot with making and keeping friends.

My brother has been there my whole life and I'm not ready or want to say goodbye, but it feels like he has done it for me. I have already tried talking about it with my family, my brother, my therapies and myself multiple times.

It has not helped.

I'm not sure 100% what I want from the call.

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