My, my job is to somehow make them curious enough and persuade them by hookah crew to get

more aware of themselves and where they came from and what they are into and what is already

there just to bring it out. This is what compels me to compel them and I will do it by whatever

means necessary. Welcome to the Black Girl's Hill podcast where we talk about

healing or intimacy disorders, members of trauma and building a healthy relationship with

first ourselves and then others. Every episode we will talk about advice you can apply today

to break unhealthy patterns and grow your self-worth. I'm Shrinella Shay, love addition coach and

trauma specialist. Let's begin. Hello, hello and welcome to the latest episode of Black Girls

Hill. Happy, happy day to you. This episode is coming out on a Thursday and typically episodes come

out on Tuesday-ish and it is coming out later this week for those who are listening live because

this is the week of our September retreat and your girl has been a busy working. I've been

finalizing curriculum, talking with the attendees, talking with vendors, trying to sleep and then of

course coaching other students and all the other things that I do with my day. So I had actually

recorded the topic, the same topic that we're going to talk about today. I had actually already

recorded it and it was done and ready on Monday for me to post it on Tuesday and I sounded tired

and it was not the energy that I wanted to bring because today we're going to talk about how

in your healing process it will get better. When we are making the decision to take the look

in the mirror and to take big risky steps to start to believe differently, to start to let people in,

to start to trust, to try to choose happiness, whatever that means when people talk about choosing

happiness and we learn skills and mindset and heal trauma that makes it really hard for us to be

present and we get on medication if we need to, whatever our story entails for us, everybody's

story is different. When we start to make these big moves towards hope, towards light, even when we're

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