YOUR SECRET MANTRA: Cured by Failure.
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Nikki Walton
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🗓️ 20 May 2026
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Summary
UnBecoming Part 5: How to Fail (May 20, 2026)
Your whole life, you've felt this urgency. Not like you were running out of time, but that you only had a certain amount of time to figure it out. To remember what you couldn't seem to remember. What always felt just out of reach. What others seemed to didn't care about or even know of. They were busy living life and having friends. You didn't have many growing up (you don't have any now).
Your mom said you rarely smiled, and all you wanted to do was be alone with your books. You began reading esoteric and mystical literature by the age of seven. You were doing practices to get out of your body, to find out what was beyond your body, by age ten. Staring into mirrors, at that reflection, looking back down at that body, knowing it wasn't you. CONTINUE >>>
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| 0:00.0 | I wish you could see yourself the way I see you. |
| 0:07.0 | Without that filter that you've acquired, that you've built, that you've been given, that you suffer. |
| 0:19.0 | Why do you pray? Why do you chant? Why do you do any of the |
| 0:27.1 | spiritual things that you do? Why do you read so much? Why do you watch? Why are you here? Listening. |
| 0:38.3 | Something in you is saying something is wrong. |
| 0:45.6 | Even if you can't discern those words, even if you can't tease them out, there's a feeling |
| 0:51.7 | that feels like something is wrong. Something is missing. |
| 1:00.4 | That has become your secret mantra. And so you chant to change, you pray to change, you beg for change, |
| 1:08.2 | you try to surrender. You try to surrender, but you can't. You can't let go. You don't know how to loosen your grip. You let go of one thing you pick up another. You let go of that. You pick up another. And you don't see. You don't see, but now you are seeing. The mind says |
| 1:31.3 | you need steps, that there must be a process you've missed, a secret, a formula, but now |
| 1:37.3 | you're stopping. Nothing is wrong. Right now, in this exact breath, you have your daily bread. I have given you your daily bread. You have enough for today. You have your life today. You can feel my love today. Nothing is wrong. Feel the difference in that body when you actually allow yourself to know that. |
| 2:06.5 | Feel the fight or flight fleeing your nervous system right now. |
| 2:11.9 | Watch it leave you quiet and softened, emptied, yet completely full of me. |
| 2:19.6 | You have to let me in. |
| 2:25.1 | And you do that by opening. |
| 2:31.2 | The way you are right now. |
| 2:35.6 | What's not a doing. |
| 2:39.4 | It's an undoing. |
| 2:44.4 | Real prayer, real chanting, real meditation isn't a transaction. |
| 2:58.4 | It's just praying with me meditating as me singing and chanting to me or love just to be in the presence of this love to recognize this presence as yourself or the sweetness |
| 3:06.6 | of it undivided attention. |
| 3:11.3 | And that's the secret when you're undivided your life is. The whole game is love, but you've |
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