These are my personal opinions. Always seek a professional when you're making choices about your mental health and well-being.

I think I spent a long time in my entire life waiting for happiness to come when I could have just taken steps toward it and stopped waiting

for other people to change, stop waiting for my work to change, stop waiting for me to like my work.

And I never took those steps because I just assumed that this is how you live your life.

You accept what you have without question, unless it's really terrible and you want to change, which is fine.

I mean, that's what I believed.

You could change if you wanted to, but if it was, I guess, good enough, it was good enough.

And so I stuck around.

Even relationships I was unhappy in, I was so loyal that I wanted to stay because I didn't want to be the guy who left.

I also, I think this is part of it, I also had a fear of being alone and feeling abandoned.

So I didn't leave because of that too, probably mostly because of that.

It was dysfunction running the show.

But in general, I think there are a lot of people out there that choose to stay in a relationship, a job, or any environment

or situation they're in, even when they have the means to change, because either change

is hard or change is wrong or whatever.

There's a reason that you don't change, especially when you can when you're unhappy.

That doesn't mean it's easy. It just means you can. Like I could leave a relationship if I wanted to

because I could, but, you know know there's a lot involved I got

a move I got to figure out my finances maybe I want to find somebody else that's not

where I am today but that's where I was in the past because you know had to find

somebody else because I had a fear of being alone.

Again, dysfunction is running the show.

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