I remember when I had my girlfriend. my first real girlfriend.

I had one before that, but my first real girlfriend lasts about a year and a half.

And one day she broke up with me and I was devastated. I was

absolutely devastated that was

pretty young.

and she broke up with me in the backyard.

And she broke up with me in the backyard.

And I started bawling I started crying so hard I didn't know how to handle it this was the person I spent all my time with. This is the person that I believed I loved and that she was the one and that we were going to be together forever.

If that was even a thought in my mind back then, but I didn't know of any other life, any other life without

her. I didn't know anything else. It was all about her. All my thoughts were about her. And when they weren weren't I knew that I was going to see her again.

So when she said, I don't think we should see each other anymore, I just started crying. I felt like, I mean at 19 I was pretty much an adult

and I was just crying my head off right in front of her. Why? Why? And I mean I can laugh about it now.

But, um, she said,

I know, I just think we should...

And then at the end of my crying,

it feels like it lasts about 20 minutes.

At the end of my crying, she said, well, okay,

let's just see what happens.

We'll try again. I said I said oh thank you so much thank you so I was

so grateful thank you thank you thank you and the next day she broke up with me.

Permanently, that was it.

We were done and I forget if I cried again, but that was it.

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