Welcome back to the basement yard today. I'm actually putting this out late. It's Tuesday, January 2nd, 2018.

It's a new year, bitch. Happy new year, everybody.

2018. Doesn't really feel any different. I'll be honest with you. I don't know what it is, but when you get older, like nothing, no holidays feel important.

Like nothing, your birthdays kind of just like, dude, it's, I have worked tomorrow. I can't come out. I'm sorry. You know, it's just nothing's the same. Christmas was like cool, but usually like the whole month of December, it's like Christmas season and it just feels that way.

And I don't know if it was just because I was so out of it, but it just didn't feel like it was weird. Christmas was awesome though. Like Christmas day and celebrating with my family.

It was actually one of the most emotional and maybe the greatest Christmas morning I've ever had to be honest with you. It was really something special for me and my family. Cause I mean, we went through a lot this year. There was a lot of stuff that obviously I'm not going to fucking tell you.

But you know, on Christmas morning, it was just really nice that we could all be there and just kind of give each other gifts and shit. Like it was dope.

But this past New Year's Eve and New Year's Eve was cool too. Just now I'm like, backtrack and the shit I just said. No, but New Year's Eve was cool too. Like me and my friends, we rented out this top floor of a bar and a bunch of people were there. It was like 60 people, 60, 70 people or something like that.

I don't really know what people that, you know, I grew up with and that are my best friends in the world. So it was cool.

But yeah, I mean, it's not like I feel like, all right, here we go. New start, fresh start. And now it's just like whatever. Like I don't really have any resolutions. Really? Because some of the stuff that I wanted to address, I started addressing before the New Year.

I don't know whatever reason. Like I said it on Twitter, like not so long ago. I feel like I've been just MIA, like the past month and just on autopilot and just really not.

I'm just, I don't know, like just not a good version of myself. That's just how I felt. I don't know why. Like I wasn't really on top of my shit for some reason.

And I, you know what it was? I think it's because I stopped going to the gym. And I know that sounds crazy, but you'd be, you'd be surprised what that does for you. Like if I don't go to the gym in the morning, it's like hard for me to have a productive day.

Because if you're up early, you're already moving, you get the blood flow. It's like, all right, I don't have energy. Let's do some shit. But when you just wake up and like make breakfast and then sit on a couch and like watch fucking ESPN or some shit.

You just kind of after a while, you just kind of go through the motions because I didn't go to the gym because I was six or like a week.

And then after that, I was like, yeah, it's Wednesday. I'm not going to start now. I'll wait till next Monday.

Like I don't know where that logic comes from, by the way, but that's my logic sometimes. If it's Thursday and I haven't got to the gym all week, I'm like, well, I'm not going to go now.

I got to start on Monday, start fresh. And then I just don't end up going on Monday. So that's what I've been doing. But I address this.

I just not like a week and a half ago, I just realized I'm like, you know, I've been really just off my shit. Like I think I missed two uploads in December, which is like a lot for me missing two videos in a month.

And I just had all these excuses in my head of like why I wasn't doing it.

You know, I was telling myself that, you know, maybe I just don't want to do it anymore. Like maybe, you know, blah, blah, blah, blah.

Or I don't want to do this or blah, blah, blah. I don't know what the fuck it. What?

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