Hi, my name is John Kim and I'm a therapist who went through his own

rebirth. I share my feelings and revelations. I believe in casual or

clinical and with you instead of at you I come unrehearsed on

purpose because self-help doesn't have to be so complicated. Okay I'm not gonna lie

this is like my fifth take of this episode and I'm angry and

frustrated because I'm breaking my own rules. This podcast is supposed to be unrehearsed. Just turn the mic and go, just be yourself.

And I've been doing that for 200 plus episodes and now I am starting to do multiple takes and I don't know what's going on. I mean I'm assuming as my podcast grows and I'm like

even right now as I'm talking to you I'm becoming afraid becoming afraid right now becoming a perfectionist I'm

becoming someone that I'm not at my core because I'm you know on the

unpolished half-ass build the bus while he's driving a guy and color outside the lines. Quick story real quick. So I have a friend, his name's Joey and he told me the story that when he was in high school he would purposely not get a right home and then use the entire day to challenge himself to find the right home.

So like his mom would drop him off and then you know he would actually tell her not to pick him up and

for some reason that story always stuck with me because that's kind of how I am it's like

all right let's forget how to get there let's just start going and then we'll figure it out on the way.

I don't know what it is about that that's really interesting.

I think it forces you to explore and it's like that challenge right can I figure this out can I do it can I

find my way home okay anyway so I got to go back to being unrehearsed and this is going to be my final take of this episode,

so you are hearing, this is it. I'm not going to do 20 takes of this episode. Okay, so let's talk about the,

well, real quick. Let me finish what I was saying. So I think what's happening is as I'm getting some more traction

with my podcast and I'm imagining the people listening.

I'm becoming afraid and self-conscious and insecure.

And wait a minute, I just said this. minute I just said this did I just say this you know what I

just realize that I'm repeating it because I've said it so much by by doing so many

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