you have no idea how much joy it brings me to bring you these messages each day. However,

the Nikki character procrastinates. She hesitates. She feels like, do you know that, well, I never

double dutched because I'm not athletic and I never cared to do anything like that, but I'd watch my sister do it

and like that kind of waiting for the exact right moment to jump in, you know, or when you think

of the story of Hanuman leaping across the ocean, that hesitation happens each time I sit down at the microphone and i do everything but turn on

the microphone and then finally i can feel the holy spirit say like it's time it's time and i sit here

and i wait and it all comes out at once. There is some correction that happens sometimes,

but it flows in one cohesive message that is succinct in a way that I would not be able

to make it. If it wasn't for this love, I would not have

been able to make it this far to still be here with you, helping you make it. You will make it,

but you must keep going. You must keep practicing, witnessing that body, watching that body. I cannot stress that enough. And it's hard to tell you to do that

because I know I was told to do that many, many, many, many moons ago. And although I knew it was the

highest, I'd go off on side quests and scenic ventures into other places and directions and books and teachings and teachers in areas of the earth.

And I'd always glimpse Nikki on the plane.

Glimpse Nikki reading that book.

Glimpsed Nikki chanting.

Glimps Nikki's fingers running over rosary beads,

over Mala beads, over Bibles, thumbing through scripture. And in those moments, that glimpse,

that fresh air would come in. And it's like, oh, this is her story of awakening. This is her story of recognition, of realization of losing and

finding and seeking and finding, but I am found. And as long as that thought isn't believed in,

the one that says just one more book, just one more practice, Maybe the secret is in that teaching or with that

teacher. When you interrupt that thought with love, there's not room for anything else. There is no

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