On today's episode of the podcast, I talk about how this week of the year always ends up being a big mix of grief and celebration for me.

I share a very overwhelming, painful, difficult week that also is filled with joy and love and excitement and how I'm just holding a lot of everything

right now. And I have a feeling you are too.

Let's dive in.

Hi friends. Hi everyone. Welcome to the show. It's time for a brand new episode of From the Heart.

And I am sitting here. Wow. I feel I feel such high highs and low lows and everything is just kind of everything feels like a lot this week

I guess that's a good way to put it I feel a little overwhelmed with the intensity of everything

I had this major realization this morning as I was baking my daughter's birthday cake. It's her

ninth birthday tomorrow, which means in one week, it's this podcast's a ninth birthday also because

I started this podcast when she was one week old. So happy almost birthday to all of us.

But this morning as I was baking Leah's birthday cake, crying into the cake batter,

I just had this realization of like, oh yeah, I do this every year.

Every year at some point I find myself here prepping for laia's birthday feeling

immense sadness and just very intense grief. And that is, it's just what this week is and it's what

this week always is going to be. So if you've been here a long time, I know many of you have,

you already know. So I lost my best friend in a car accident. It's been 12 years this year.

12 years. I 12 years. I really can't, it's a very, very, very odd thing to understand.

Like, I can't really process that that, it's been that long because how can something

that feels so recent when I bring myself back to that time, it really feels like it's, it just happened now.

You know, those, those feelings are the same.

That grief is the same.

The shock of it is the same.

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