Hey, you know, I'll be honest with you all. I'm struggling a little bit right now. If you were to open the door of my brain and walk inside, you would see disarray. Not chaos, but disarray. It's messy in there. It's not a pleasant place. Is it a horrible place? No. No, it's not a horrible place. But it's slightly off kilter.

It's a little bit uncomfortable. I'm struggling a little bit. This happens. This is normal.

You know, it's inevitable. Every time you get through a rough patch, it's just a matter of time before the next one begins. And that's not

necessarily a bad thing because challenging times encourage growth and self-reflection and many good

things. And so I'm not particularly upset that my brain is in disarray because I know that I'm supposed to be feeling this way

for some reason. I know there's a reason for it. And also I'm just grateful that there isn't like

one big thing bothering me. And instead, it's like 15 more minor things that are just swirling around in my head like a tornado in a way

that makes them hard to address. But none of them are really that bad. And that's a good thing.

Like that's a great thing. I'm grateful for that. I'd so much rather it be this than one really big,

hard thing. Do you know what I mean?

It's like, this isn't that bad.

But my brain is in disarray.

And I have a lot of uncomfortable,

confusing feelings and thoughts swirling around.

And it's been very hard for me to get them under control because there's so many different little things bothering me all at once to the point where it's like, I don't even know how to sort out what's what. I don't even know how to address what's what. Like it's such a mess in my brain that even though all of these things individually aren't that bad,

the compound demon that it's built in my brain has become something bigger than the sum of

its parts. You know, it's like it's become this thing. And now I'm in a bad place because

there's all these little things bothering me and

it's all whatever and they're not being addressed properly because I can't address each thing

individually because they're all swirling around in my brain so quickly. Does that make sense?

So I had this idea to help me handle this current state of mind that I'm in, which was to write

everything down, all of the negative feelings that I'm feeling, all of the negative feelings that I'm feeling,

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