The following talk was given at the Insight Meditation Center in Redwood City, California.

Please visit our website at audioderma. Welcome. Welcome. So tonight I'd like to talk a little bit about something that I often am pointing to in

indirect ways or multiple ways and here's yet maybe another way.

This has some overlap of some other teachings this possibility of this deep sense of not being agitated.

This comforting sense of not being agitated.

And there's like so many ways in which we're agitated without really even noticing it.

In fact, we might just think that's just the normal way of being.

But it's so common just to have this sense of like,

there's got to be something better.

Let me go find it.

You know, that's like whatever it is, you know.

Like, yeah, okay, whatever's it is you know like yeah okay whatever's happening yeah I where's this

something better that's in the next moment maybe we're not even sure what

exactly it is that we're looking for. We just have this sense that whatever we're experiencing right now, it ain't it.

That somehow, you know, it doesn't measure up to some of the ideas that we have about what practice is about,

what happiness is about, what peace and well-being is about.

Whatever we're experiencing now, we often have this feeling

that it's not here and implicit in that is this agitation that might be so familiar

that we don't even notice it. And it's not until we maybe have some deep meditative experiences or something

that we start to recognize, like, oh wow, compared to that amount of stillness, I see how the way that I'm moving through the world and walking around has this sense of tumbling forward all the time or tumbling into or distracting or diverting ourselves

or attention all the time.

So the Buddhist teachings, they do point to this, like this deep sense, this deep meaningful sense of okayness, which does not sound glamorous.

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