What if I started approaching my healing as something wasn't wrong with me, something

was right with me?

And when I learned to make anxiety my ally, I don't have anxiety because something's

wrong with me.

I have anxiety because my body is trying to communicate that I just participated in something

that does not agree with me.

I had a lot of, I mean I dare say brainwashing right?

I had to figure out what were my thoughts and what were thoughts that I had learned

to think were mine.

And in a weird way that's all anxiety and trauma is right?

We learned to have thoughts that make us sick.

We start to engage in activities that make us sick and our anxiety is our body's way

like a heart alarm of saying somebody's trying to break in or you're, you know, if you

eat bad fish and you throw up, your body's way of saying don't eat bad fish again.

And then when I learned to make it my best friends so that when I had it, I went wait,

what was I just thinking?

And I would write it down and I would go, am I willing to stop engaging in that thought?

And what thought would I replace it with?

I had my own map.

I had my own map to my own healing to my own authenticity because my anxiety let me know

when I was participating in something inauthentic.

It's mine be all it's break down.

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