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This week, part four of the six-week run of No Feeling is final, an award-winning series by ABC Audio Studios. It's a memoir, a deep dive into

Honor Reesley's mental health journey. So it is just one person's perspective. Honor sat on the

expert advisory committee at the Victorian Royal Commission, and she spoke about her own mental

health experiences. For years, she's documented this

journey. And I've been documenting the process of working through these big feelings, of figuring

out what it's like to feel so hopeless that you want to die. And now I have years of phone

recordings and diary entries from the inside.

I was just having a little like 3 a.m. ponder, you know, about how my life is ruined.

Oh, yeah. Yeah.

Gentle stroll through the forest of doom.

Yeah, it's my favorite thing to do.

Well, 3 a.m's a good time for that.

I still can't believe that this is what's happening.

Sometimes I wake up and I forget.

And then I remember... Sometimes I wake up and I forget.

And then I remember... This version has been edited for radio, but the full version is available as a podcast.

Just search No Feeling is Final.

In this episode, what it's like to be put on one antidepressant, then another,

then benzodiazepines, then lithium, only to find none of it helps.

And a warning, you'll be hearing strong language

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