Hello Annie Mack here. This is the new podcast and the reason why it exists is because I can't

remember anything I seem to have lost huge swathes of my life it stressed me out to the point where I went and spoke to a memory

expert and she said I had to quiz my family and friends and get them to share their

memories of my life with me so that I can relive my life so I can remember.

Every episode of this podcast begins with one of their memories and then we use those memories

to inform the wider discussions, which is big fun conversations

with people that I love and people that I admire.

This is finding Annie.

Now let's head back to the year in 1994 and over to one of my oldest and best friends, Susan.

I was looking back at my diary from autumn 1994, which describes an incident that happened between the two of us as 16 year olds and it starts

it off just before the half term in October 1994 and it says your parents are going away for the weekend

until I was going to live with you for the weekend and it says we're trying to figure out

all the lies we're going to tell so we were

also planning to get up to mischief and that weekend we ended up going up to a

party at Justin Tennant's house and I kissed a boy who I'd liked and it then goes on to describe how

embarrassed I was to see him and all the normal stuff and then three weeks later we were at a party after a play and I think it was up at

someone's house near a volunteer I can kind of remember the party and you kissed the same boy and there's this entry

that talks about how much I hated boys I hated you I hated myself and all the confusion and anger and sadness and jealousy I suppose that I felt all the gossip and the speculation going around and then on the 24th

November a few days later there's a little note stuck into my diary and it's in your handwriting and it says,

Susan, you're more important to me than any effing girl or boyfriend I have on this earth.

I've been trying to tell you this for so, a lot of those long, Annie.

Oh, the pain, hearing that, just the idea that I had forgotten something that affected my best friend so hugely in her life. Like as a teenager how huge that would have been, how horrible that would have been, how painful that would have been.

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