As we grow, we evolve. That is the point, right? We don't want to stay in the same spaces,

in the same mental state. We want to learn and we want to do better. Recently, not really recently,

I would say kind of recently. God has been pulling on my heart, ministering to me in ways

that I've experienced before. But this time, there is a space to absolutely invite him wholeheartedly

in. There was a reluctance in the boldness. Not that I was ever ashamed of God or that I was

afraid to say that I was a Christian. But when we speak of the boldness of a Christian, there is a certain

association that a person will be perfect, that they will be free of sin, that their

motives, their behaviors will appear to be perfect, and there's a certain scrutiny that goes along with it.

I remember writing this particular day, just as I do many other days.

And it was something that God wanted me to share.

And so I let it flow just like it always does.

And I got mid-paragraph and I stopped.

And then I began to write something else.

And it was something that I shared on social media.

After I shared the message, I felt so heavy in my heart convicted because that isn't what God told me to do.

I stopped myself from writing further and letting it flow

because to me for whatever reason, I restricted myself from feeling maybe the glory of God

entering into my mind and also into my spirit from my hands to my pen to my paper.

And I'll never forget how heavy that day felt where I felt like, oh, I got to scratch the video and my must retract.

There was a word that was supposed to be supplied that day that I didn't do. Failure to do so

cause me harm in my day. I had such a horrible day. One of the things that God has really

revealed to me is that in each level that he brings us to, he requires a different part of us.

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