Hi, welcome back to the Personality Hacker Podcast. My name is Joel Mark Witt.

And I'm Antonia Dodge. I mentioned a few podcasts ago, maybe, I don't know, I can't remember exactly which one it was

maybe about four or five podcasts back that I've been going through kind of a hard time

dealing with my parent situation I mentioned that it doesn't take much for my parents to say something that, you know,

gets a pretty big response for me and I've been working through it and sort of trying to figure

this all out and then we had a situation recently

where just a big wall of grief hit me.

And I'm not really good at registering my emotions when they're happening. I'm not really good at

identifying them. And I have this phenomenon, this phenomenon that I have a very delayed grief

mechanism. So like my sister died in 2003,

and it wasn't until about seven years later

that it really hit me and I started to truly grieve

for my sister's death.

And I think something similar happened. My estrangement with my parents happened about seven or eight years ago, and then just recently it hit me.

So I've been having this hard time, I've been really down, I've been having a very difficult time creating any content.

Podcasts are stretched for me, they're kind of a strain to show up and actually talk in a

microphone.

And I've been having trouble writing articles.

I've got this whole series of articles I'm supposed to be writing right now and I just can't

seem to get to them.

We're writing a book right now and it's been very difficult for me to write the book.

So I'm sitting here feeling really impotent and kind of lame and you left for,

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