Hello, welcome actually to underneath that.

I'm like, I hate that. I don't know what I was doing that. I'm M. Clarkson.

Do you know there's only 10 Fridays still Christmas?

I hate when people do this. Oh God, why? Are you kidding? No, no. Why? Because it's so cool. Why are we counting down our lives? Like, I don't want it to be Christmas because then it's another year. It's counting up. It's getting excited for Christmas. But then what about, I don't enjoy that because then I think what about all the weekends now that are just sitting there like, what am I, nothing to you?

Like, what am I just? You can still enjoy those weekends. Just a leapfrox, like a stepping stone. You can still have fulfilling, meaningful weekends until Christmas. But also, how cool that we're, oh, well, you just, you've brought me down. marching drum of time is deafening as it, like, it's deafening enough to me.

Like, I don't need it.

I don't need it, you know, like, it gets me all the time. Every time I like, look on my calendar and I'm like, it's 20, 25. And then I'm like, oh my God, it's the end of 2020. Literally. That happens to me about three times a day. So the last thing I need is

I wouldn't have thought that you'd have been like that

I don't know I feel like that's a very me thing to think

Yeah I agree

Yeah So the last thing I need is... I wouldn't have thought that you'd have been like that.

I don't know.

I feel like that's a very me thing to think. Yeah, I agree. Yeah. That doesn't seem like a vibe. No, I know. I think... I feel... For the fuck sake, why are you always like psychoanalizing me? I think I feel the pressure to have... Why don't I have to do this? What keeps happening is

I want to be mysterious so badly

I keep thinking

I'm going do this? What keeps happening is I want

to be mysterious so badly. I keep thinking, I'm going through this really like overwhelming period

where it's like, I wish I could just be a bit mysterious. Oh, what's them up to? Who knows?

Everybody knows. Everybody knows. And I just wish people knew less. And I just wish I spoke less.

And it's so annoying.

Okay, well, I mean, you have a podcast that goes out two episodes a week.

It's too much. But then I keep thinking, is it too, like, is it too much? Like, does it ultimately does it matter what people know? Do you know what I mean? Like, I might as well tell everybody everything because, you know, why am I protecting it? Why do you want to be mysterious?

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