Hi, my name is John Kim. I'm a therapist who went through his own rebirth many years ago

and I've been documenting my journey ever since sharing my life lessons and revelations.

I believe in casual or clinical with you instead of at you. I come unrehearsed on purpose

because self-health doesn't have to be so complicated.

Okay, let's start with a little warm-up and the warm-up is, what is one thing that you're struggling with these days?

Cool. with these days. One thing that I'm struggling with these days, which is something I'm always struggling with.

I don't think it's like a new thing.

Okay, okay, what's one thing, I'm going to tighten the vice a little bit, what's one thing

that you're struggling with these days that have nothing to do with raising a child?

Right, so one thing I'm struggling with these days that's not something new is based on kind of upbringing and, you know, I think

conditioning and wiring and all that stuff. I have a really hard time

celebrating myself and like finding real excitement and joy and so with our like book coming out and kind of like

potential of exciting yes your birthday your birthday coming this Friday

right okay I have to like be reminded by people in my life that these things are like exciting and and worthy of like celebration and there's a reason I think why I bring people in my life that I do like my best friend today is one of them who is like this like giddy cheerleader like oh my gosh is amazing and I'm like not like that because we all need a friend like that because I like need her to a moat for me.

So two quick questions before we get to your questions.

One, where do you think that comes from?

Why is it a struggle for you to celebrate yourself?

I think partly it's because I was like a parentified child and so I you know the

taking care of others yeah and so the lack of play happened really early on so

dropping into that is difficult for me. But also I'm like more of like the well

and this also is a pretty child but like I'm more of like the linear planning for when

things go wrong waiting for the other shoe to drop, getting

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