Hello everyone I'm Lexi Lombard, your host of the at Lexi Podcast and it is a cold cloudy day here in New York City which is primarily one of my least favorite weather. I don't mind a storm I don't mind partly cloudy but when it's

just infinitely gray and normally opposed to it.

Oh, no, no, no, I am soaking it up. I love it. I woke up early this morning.

I don't know what you consider early seven seems early to me and I just

stared out my window for probably 35 minutes just admiring this beautiful world we live.

I'm not kidding.

I'm laughing at our head ass I sound like 50% of the time,

but I genuinely, I'm just grateful to be here. I'm just happy to have whatever is being thrown at me.

I say that with a grain of salt or what's the word? I say that with my fingers cross maybe is what I'm saying because I really don't want anything

harder thrown at me I saw a meme recently and it was like I've had enough what can't kill you makes you stronger

moments in my life like please give me a break and that's exactly how I feel but I had two really

great face times with two really good friends of mine this week and when I was giving them both a life update on me,

it was so pleasant and rewarding and exciting to tell them that I'm genuinely doing good.

Right now, I'm doing good and it's not like I'm floating, I'm treading water, and I'm not sinking, or I'm not going

backwards, I'm genuinely okay right now.

And this is the longest happy slash peaceful and content streak I've had since my mom passed and I'm

grateful for it every single day. It's hard not to live with a little bit of hesitation looking, you know, with my head on a swivel,

whether or not something else is going to crash and burn right next to me.

But so far, like this week, and we're talking in short term, this week was good.

This week, when as planned, everything was consistent, things were exciting, they were good but not mania. This week was not manic.

Nothing uncertain came up, there was a very low level of chaos and I've never been so grateful for that. Chaos is fun sometimes

don't get me wrong. When we are stuck in our routine throwing a little chaos into the mix can really liven things up, but when things have been too chaotic, having a week that I had this week is so needed where the to-do list was all checked off

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