Holly Madison: Blackouts, Group Sex, & Playboy Fame were Toxic

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Mayim Bialik

Mental Health, Society & Culture, Wellness, Health & Fitness, Comedy, Thebigbangtheory, Spirituality, Selfimprovement, Mentalhealth

4.7 • 5.2K Ratings

🗓️ 9 July 2024

⏱️ 81 minutes

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Summary

Holly Madison, former world FAMOUS PLAYMATE, reveals SHOCKING truths about her life in the Playboy Mansion....from her relationship with Hugh Hefner (who was 54 years her senior) to LOVE BOMBING, the dark side of STOCKHOLM SYNDROME, and BREAKING FREE and discovering herself. Holly (bestselling author, podcaster, THE PLAYBOY MURDERS host & EP) opens up about how being diagnosed with autism recently affected her entire outlook on life and shares important signs that you might be in a manipulative relationship. She discusses everything you've ever wondered about Playboy life, including: - What enticed her about the Playboy mansion experience, how she came to live there, and how she became Hugh Hefner’s “Main girlfriend” - Why she thinks she was an easy target for Hefner - Tactics Hefner employed to keep women from leaving the mansion - How she numbed herself through substance use to get through day-to-day life - How interpersonal dynamics & intense sense of competition within the playboy mansion contributed to her body dysmorphia - HEALING & EMPOWERMENT: What was Hefner really like behind closed doors? And how did she FINALLY break free from his grip? - What led her to break her silence on the trauma she suffered during her time at the mansion We're unpacking her fascinating autism diagnosis, from the benefits of finally being diagnoses and how it negatively influenced her decision-making process, to how it informed her parenting style. Holly breaks down: - The real cost of giving up yourself in a harmful relationship - Why people stay in harmful relationships, from fear of judgment to lack of financial stability - Finding spirituality in storytelling & the places she lets her intuition guide her - Her new mission as a free speech advocate! - What she does to maintain positive mental health, including her superstitious vision board process Mayim and Holly also bond over their love of true crime as Holly explains “The Playboy Curse”! Ready to be INSPIRED? TUNE IN to MBB today!

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0:00.0	One of the biggest reasons I was afraid to leave is just fear of judgment from everyone.
0:06.7	I never felt confident enough like I had my footing financially or knew what my next thing was going to be in a way that would make me feel
0:14.7	confident enough to kind of like brave everybody's judgment.
0:17.9	And then of course there's like the guilt of the relationship because he is very love-bomby.
0:21.6	Tries to make everything seem so romantic
0:23.8	and cod dependent,
0:24.8	and that was something I was not emotionally
0:26.2	or mentally prepared for at my age at all.
0:28.9	I was somebody who always had a hard time
0:30.9	connecting with other people.
0:32.2	I felt like maybe I'm not meant to be with somebody my age. My
0:35.4	family would ask me questions about it. I'd always give them the very sanitized version of what was going on,
0:40.4	just out of a place of like defensiveness or maybe not being ready to
0:44.8	emotionally address certain things myself and then when you get in that habit of
0:49.4	being defensive and being like no everything's No, he's the nicest guy.
0:52.6	No, you don't understand.
0:53.5	It's not like that.
0:54.4	It's not what people say.
0:55.8	You start to kind of believe it yourself.
0:58.2	And then I would kind of get in this weird space
1:01.5	where I'm just trying to figure out,
1:03.2	okay, well, I've committed so fully to this in so many ways.
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