I can't.

This is why I didn't wear eyeliner for this video.

Sometimes your biggest wound becomes your greatest source of power.

I'm going to spend time with my dad in Shanghai, who I have not seen since 2019.

The weather is so nice today, so I wanted to be outside at this time since it's going to

rain for the next two days.

It's like 75, 76 degrees right now.

A few months ago, I visited my dad in China after not seeing him for six years.

And I finally said what had been on my heart for decades.

I'm not sure where to begin or how to even explain

the depth of what this experience means to me and how much I've grown in the past decade

of my life to have gotten to this point. To me, this experience reflects one of the greatest

difficulties I've overcome, one of the greatest mountains I've climbed.

It took me so long to finish this video because although I vlogged my whole week in Shanghai, all of the key

moments and the main story that I want to share happen when the camera is off.

So I decided to share it in this format directly with you.

I don't think I can fully capture the whole story, emotions, and depth in this one video, but I'm trusting that

whatever I do share will be of value to you and help you in whatever way you choose to

interpret it.

Growing up, I didn't see much of my dad.

We really only saw him every three to four years.

So even though he wasn't physically here with our family, he was a persistent and overbearing shadow in our lives.

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