So I was a young pastor, probably 23 or 24 years of age.

And my pastor had a back surgery and told me I had to preach Sunday, Tuesday, Wednesday,

Thursday, and the following Sunday.

And I felt incredibly unprepared, insecure.

And I think for the first time in my life, I felt this crushing over and over again.

I felt like I was crushing overwhelming sense of anxiety.

I mean, I was terrified, not good enough.

And I remember feeling like the shortness of breath, and it felt like my heart rate was racing.

And so I went to talk to a much older, very wise spiritual leader.

This guy was ancient. He was probably 38, 39 years of age.

And I was so young, he seemed like he'd been around forever.

He was a little bit more energetic and admired and looked up to spiritually.

And I said, I am overwhelmed with anxiety.

I don't know what to do.

And the guy looked at me and he said, Christian shouldn't have anxiety.

Especially pastors.

You should just give it to God. Just give it to God.

I'm a little bit nervous, a little bit nervous that I love.

But at the time, I felt insulted by it.

He said, we're almost in a condescending way.

Rejoice in the Lord always. I say it again, rejoice.

That your gentleness be evident to all the Lord is nearing.

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