The following talk was given at the Insight Meditation Center in Redwood City, California.

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Welcome,

welcome folks.

Nice to see some names over there.

Yeah, a lot of warm associations.

So welcome.

We'll sit as we do.

I'll guide something.

I don't know what.

We'll see what the moment brings and yeah can enjoy each other virtually. So just gently take your darma posture of your heart. I'm going to Tranquility and alertness in some dynamic tension sometimes.

We stretch up towards the sky or spine.

But then give the rest of our body to the downward pull of the earth gravity. You're going to see? I'm going to see? craving, clinging, holding on attachment,

create waves of tension.

It's so hard to control experience.

Some part of us never wants to let go.

Maybe another part of us is really ready to surrender to the goodness and the imperfection of this moment.

And in that gesture of surrender, the the possibilities become more apparent. So before we even try to pay attention to something, we notice the little whirlpools of holding on and control of shaping ourselves, of proving ourselves,

of proving ourselves, getting somewhere and we deeply relax. You're going to see. You're not going to be here. And yeah, you don't get to have the exact life.

Thought you wanted. So whatever heartache there may be in a very small microcosm way or big we just breathe into that. You're going going to see. You're going to And here is my life.

this moment, this breath. This is what it's like to be me to be human. human. I may honor it by not pushing and pulling on it,

pushing and pulling on it, molding and shaping. and You're going to see. And so now paying attention to our breathing is not a task. but a kind of pleasure. you're You're going to. You're going to. You're going to. You're going to. You're going to. You're not going to be here. that we can influence our life creates the illusion that we control it or we own it, but we don't exactly own our life.

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