were going on six months into this pandemic. And yesterday, I was thinking about after the pandemic,

it's going to actually feel really good to kind of just move around and go someplace new.

But then at the same time, I actually started to get anxious. Like, I don't think if I don't

think I would ever feel comfortable going to a concert or

plane or, you know, being within six feet of other people because this pandemic has really

kind of given me and I think some other people that I've been talking to, like a PTSD,

like coronavirus PTSD. Like Like all we know is what

it was before. We don't know anything different. And now that we're in this new normal, I don't know

if I would feel comfortable going back to doing activities where I might get sick. And I was kind of

surprised because I really thought that I've been doing okay. I've been doing really well,

dealing with sheltering at home and just dealing with, you know, the day-to-day news cycle

where really anything can pop up and it has been a little bit stressful. But I really,

it felt okay. But when I started to think about like, oh, like, what are things going to be

like next year? I got anxious and I think it was about like, oh, like, what are things going to be like next year?

I got anxious and I think it was partly because we've been in this for so long.

I don't know what normal.

I know what normal is, but I don't really feel that I would be okay going back to that.

But then at the same time, I also don't know what the future holds. And to be quite

honest, the present kind of scares me as well. So I guess that was something I hadn't really been

able to vocalize to anyone. But my body and my brain definitely let me know that it's something

that I need to pay attention to and think about more.

I just want to drop it hello.

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