Welcome to just break up the podcast about love, heartbreak and all the

relationship advice you don't want to hear. My name is Sierra de Mulder.

And I'm Sam Blackwell and today we're going to answer a letter from somebody who has been secretly dating her ex.

But before we begin, we just want to give you our Surgeon General's warning, which is that Sierra

and I are not licensed mental health practitioners.

No, we are not professionals. We are not trained in any of this so please take our advice as you see

fit. We're only here to offer our humble musings so hopefully we've had some

understanding and maybe some laughs about the incredibly rewarding

but mostly confusing experience that is love.

All right, let's get into today's letter.

So today's letter comes from,

unfortunately in love, whose pronouns are she, her, who is writing from the dark pits of uncertainty.

Dear S and S, I have an extremely complicated pickle that I've gotten myself into so strap in to simplify the very nuanced

and complex last couple years of my life I have secretly been seeing my axe he

him behind the backs of my closest friends and family for almost two years now.

For context we were very on and off in the initial two years, decided to break up after an

extremely emotional and scary breakup which involved threats of suicide and then continued that toxic roller coaster ride in the following two years, which have been kept secret from everyone else in my life.

So a total of four years, quote, together.

In a way, I didn't want the people in my life to suffer through the ups and downs with me,

hence keeping it from them when we got back together.

There's no excuse for this level of insanity, other than our past was very toxic and

after that initial breakup that all my loved ones supported I found

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