Hi there, you're listening to episode 93 after baggage reclaim sessions.

I'm your host Natalie Lou, writer of baggage reclaim.com, where I help people to increase their emotional availability

so that they can move on from the past, put confidence and happier within, and show up for the relationships

and opportunities that reflect their best selves.

How do I know if I'm lying to myself?

This is a question that I'm often asked by people who are keen to ensure that they don't fall into the same rabbit hole as before.

Or who are trying to figure out what is going on in a current situation.

I don't know if I've spoken about this actually before, but many, many moons ago,

you know, that time when I got involved with a guy at work who had a girlfriend,

it was a long time ago, thankfully, but the night after, well no, so the night after, the day after we got together, I woke up the following morning and no he was not there,

but I woke up the following morning and I couldn't see out of one of my eyes properly.

And I had this blinding searing pain in it, and it sort of eased off off and several months later, well yeah it's about four or five

months later when I was diagnosed with my immune system disorder as I started to track back all the incidences of me having this awful

sort of, these violent sort of flashing attacks in my eyes, very painful.

Sometimes I would be almost turned back in my head.

My eye was just awful and I was losing my sight as well.

Can you believe I would be going to the doctors and they'd be going,

I was just a mild eye infection. It was actually pretty serious what I had with my eye.

Anyway, I digress. The point is that when I looked back at all the times when I had the onset of the symptoms,

it was all linked to times when I had some

some big blowout bust up over of course the fact that I was involved in this affair.

So it is amazing how we can get even some physical signs in our life that we are lying to ourselves

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