Once upon a time, a podcaster named Glenn, that's me, recorded a conversation with another

podcaster named Mike. You'll hear him in just a moment. To talk about this thing called

the Gene Keys that was written by a guy named Richard Rudd. You'll hear some clips from him

too. And it all got published on a podcast called Infants on Thrones and another podcast called

Mormons on Mushrooms. And dozens of people heard it. Some of them even liked it. And maybe one of those

is you and maybe not. But anyway, yeah. What I love about that is, you know, sometimes you go through these phases where all you can do is just go on instinct.

You know, you feel that impulse.

There's something emerging from within you.

And you can't judge it by what you're seeing around you.

You're still in the mud.

You can't.

And your mind's going to try to predict so many things.

But all those,

it doesn't even know the possibility of flight yet. So how can it even predict the future?

Because it's so limited in what it can see. You know, you're in the midst of darkness.

You're just, you're, you're crawling through. It feels like an itch that I just can't scratch.

It's just like a gnawing.

And it's just like a crawling like ants,

but like a gnawing kind of sensation.

And for whatever reason, I associated that with unworthiness.

To the point where my mission president, he was just getting sick of me because I would come in

and I would confess every little thing.

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