Oh wait, are we started? Yeah, okay, we just started. This great start to the episode. Hello,

welcome to this episode of the ESG Fitness Podcast. Sorry, there was a second delay on Riverside.

It was very shocking for me. And now I'm ready to start, although I'm not because I actually

don't have any notes up. Okay, here we go. Welcome to this

very professional episode of the ESG Fitness Podcast. Today I'm going to talk about injuries,

illness, heartbreak, not getting the job, doors closing and generally missing opportunities

and how to reframe that a little bit because this mindset has been so impactful to me.

So I'm going to try and articulate this as best I can because it really was like quite a profound

shift and it might seem quite obvious to people, but bear with, okay, because I think it's

going to be

useful. So I remember exactly where I had this realization, this epiphany, if you will. I was sitting

on a delayed train in the Lake District and I suddenly had this realization that I would never go back

and do my PhD. And I'd always kind of left this door

open in my mind, which I think is something I generally do because it's a little bit easier to do

this. I think I got it from my mum. And I remember this was after like my first big heartbreak.

And I was sitting at the end of my mom's bed as I do when I need a life

chat. And she was like, why don't you just leave the window open on the relationship? She's like,

you know, it's probably come to an end. By the way, this relationship has so badly come to,

not badly, but just like very conclusively for reasons I won't go into

because it'll be too obvious, but I'm like, there's literally no way that you can ever go back

there. She's like, it's maybe easier just to like leave the wind, like a window of opportunity

open because it kind of makes it easier in your head to get over than I think what's hard is when things are so final right whether it is like when I left kind of that more academic

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