I think one of the biggest things when it happened was like death really scares me now.

Death really scares me.

My family roots are included and my family's Japanese.

So I think there was a quote that I read the other day. roots are in Buddhism, my family's Japanese.

So I think there was a quote that I read the other day.

Buddhism doesn't teach you how to, doesn't answer your questions,

it just teaches you to let go.

Let go.

Let go, let go, let go, let go. And I asked whoever was in my dream, I don't know who it was, what's the meaning of these empty rooms?

And the response that I got was these rooms are you.

This is your future.

Everything that you filled these rooms with, you were told what to fill them with,

right? And now they are completely empty. They can be whatever you want them to be.

Whatever you want them to be.

I actually had a dream the other day where I was falling but I obviously have an erection right?

Why is that obvious?

Well hopefully before the Big Bang there was like dinner in a movie or something you know what I'm saying?

Oh I get I get where you're going with that thing.

Big Bang, you're you're back in Tom's dream.

I look at this window and all I can see is this big tree and I enjoyed this giant tree

in the backyard all summer and then the fall came and I was like oh man this is going to stink because all the leaves are going to fall and I'm just going to see the dead of winter and the leaves fell and one day I just looked out the window and I realized there was the most beautiful view out of my window where I can see like hundreds of pine trees on this ridge. It's like a painting.

And it wasn't until that one tree dye that I was so focused on could I see the hundreds of round, it dirts me on.

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