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Hi, this naked mind podcast I'm here with Coach Kelly. Hi kellie how are you?

Hi Kelly how are you? I'm great Thank you. So good to see you. So why don't you take us back sort of to the beginning in your relationship with alcohol? Where did it all start for you? Yes, so I had to think over this really deeply

because it's so funny.

I didn't start drinking until I was 18 years old.

So I didn't even have my first drop by alcohol until I went away to college my very first year. I was like the typical cliche girl like, oh, I'm going to go to school like let me do all the things. So my first year college, I had,

that was the first time I smoke marijuana,

the first time I drink alcohol, first time for everything.

And that was, I always had anxiety throughout my life, but thankfully I never had the tool of alcohol at the time and then when I got to college and I experienced that, of course the first time I was just like there was this my whole life like what is this?

I didn't get too extreme. I did like the typical college party in the entire year, but I was never

really a good student in school so I actually ended up coming home after my first year college. I had to come back home to New York and go to a community college my second year because just things just got two out of control. I didn't even know how to balance partying with education. And funny enough, I came back home and that year I kind of went back to who I originally was.

So I wasn't drinking at all.

I was so determined to like go back out to school

that I was just highly focused on my studies.

And I tapped into like a superpower I didn't even know I had and I'm bringing this up because that I didn't realize that I wasn't drinking that year and that also helped me so 10 years later I can look back on that year like oh that was a whole thing that was the first

Startable it is but yeah essentially the first year of college I started drinking the second year I didn't drink and then successfully made it out of my second year at college into my last two years of college at University of Buffalo, go UB. And I had a good balance of like partying and doing my education at the same time.

So it didn't get too out of control until a couple of years down the line.

Graduated college on time, three schools later, and I've been became a flight attendant,

so he enters the flight attendant era so I essentially graduated May 2013 and I got hired as a flight attendant in September 2013 so kind of like right out the gate and I went into flight attendant at the age of 23 I want to say that was or 22 and that lasted for my entire 20s up until I turned 30 and that we'll get to that stage. But throughout flying, that's what my life was. Like I was just living the dream life, you should say. I had high anxiety still with no tools. I was still very much so into

self-help at Gartolle, the power of now. My personality was still kind of what it is right now, but I had no real like tools of how to really do anything and no idea that alcohol was like damaging my body and my brain and not helping my anxiety at all. But I would essentially just work for fights and on the weekends I have my travel credits so me and the other flight attendants would just go travel the world, drink on our trips, come back home and just do it again. And again, my drinking didn't escalate at that time. It was more so just normal maybe drinking once or twice out of the week and on the weekends I would like been drink kind of like a college girl still or when I would go on vacation and then I would feel like shitty on the weekend so my vacation would typically be I would be probably in Rome like I've been to Rome Iceland Paris South Africa at like 24 25 in these beautiful places but I couldn't even leave my hotel room until like four o'clock five o'clock because I was just trying to get over the

hangover from the night before and that was normal to me like all right you go on

this three day trip you're gonna just drink and party the first night you're

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