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The past couple of weeks have been pretty difficult, challenging, tough, rough, weird. I went from being pregnant to not

without giving birth to a baby. I miss being pregnant so much. I will take it all over again.

The nausea and the fatigue and the mood swings and the irritability and my only being able to eat plain ass oatmeal and bagels for four and a half weeks straight. I will do it all over again with a fucking smile on my face.

You know, Haley, our junior editor, wrote a wonderful story earlier in the summer about self-compassion,

and it perfectly coincided with the launch of our July monthly theme, which was let loose.

And over the course of that month, I was publishing episodes of

monocycle that were tied to the theme. So every month I was letting loose and letting go of something

else. And I thought that I was letting go by, you know, drinking wine and eating what I wanted

and doing what I wanted and canceling exercise classes

and all of these really menial and trivial things

that make you feel like you're in control

and like you're doing something

because the entire experience involves a third-party variable

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