You are listening to the Stop Binge Eating Podcast with Kirsten Sarty episode number 294.

Welcome to the Stop Binge Eating Podcast. It's time for you to end your food obsession and begin

feeling confident and in control around food. You are absolutely capable of eliminating

binge eating from your life and I'm going to show you how by giving you simple

tools and insights that you can apply in your own life. I'm your host, Kirsten Sarfdy. Now let's get to it.

Hi, today's episode is about forgiving yourself, forgiving yourself for any binges you had,

for any excessive eating you did,

and for gaining weight. This can be a hard thing for a lot of people to do because they have so

much anger and resentment built up about these things. They're so mad at themselves for having

binged and for having gained weight. And a lot of the time, the reason

why they can't let go of the anger about their weight is because they're so angry about the

binging. I remember when I had gained weight because of my binging and I was mad about the weight

gain, but I was even mad about what got me there. I was so fed up with the binging and so mad that I hadn't been able to

stop it. And to me, the weight game was not only a reflection of the excessive amounts of food

that I had eaten, but I also thought it was a reflection of how out of control I felt,

how undisciplined I felt, and a reflection of my gluttony.

That's what I made it mean.

So yeah, I was angry about the weight gain, but I was more angry about what I had done to cause it.

I didn't want to feel so angry toward myself, but after so many years of trying and failing

at both stopping binge eating and getting to and maintaining my

goal weight, it was hard for me not to. And I see that happen with a lot of other people.

There's so much anger toward themselves because of what they've done to themselves with the

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