I'm Natalie Lou and you're listening to the baggage reclaim sessions.

Hello, hello, hello.

Welcome to the final episode of 2019.

Yes, I am ready to go on a break.

I knew I was ready when I just found myself feeling a bit anxious in the car earlier and I know that when I get to that level of anxious

those particular feelings it's because there's just like too many different things going on which they can be I mean at the best at times

but at the moment it just feels like it's been quite a bit of a juggle and I was like yeah I am

ready for my break now before I go on my break though, I've got to talk about something

before I go. And so this isn't a big episode, but it is important to talk about a septance, a word that's been on my mind now for several weeks.

And it's replaced another word that's been on my mind for,osh the best part of three years which is the

term surrender that's been hovering around me coming kept coming back again and again and again since sort of a couple of months before dad passed away.

And it has come back and it has been such a teacher and I returned to surrender again and again and I will continue to.

But over the last sort of several weeks I've noticed that the word acceptance keeps coming up and And it pops into my head, but also I notice that it's not just

for me, but it's for really everyone that I'm encountering that is struggling against the tide of their own forts because you know

We all have forwards well what happened right now. We just had one and another one and we will continue to.

But there are some that keep coming back. You know they're like Michael Myers in the

Halloween films, you know you think he's gone and he's back again with that awful mask.

And I have found that, yeah, there have been certain thoughts that come back and that's fine's fine that's a part of life but I've

come to realize as well that the ones that keep coming back and then we sort of

spiral into sort of a level of sort-criticism, blame, shame, hating on the other person, hating on ourselves,

you know, railing and rallying against the world. Those ones that keep coming back round,

you know, especially when we just end up feeling rubbish,

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