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Hey, this is Alexis Haines and welcome to Recovering from Reality,

where I illuminate the messy and magical path of coming home to yourself.

Whether you're on the road to recovery, seeking self-care techniques for surviving the

capitalist machine, or just need a moment to remember that you're not alone in your loneliness,

we're serving up the ultimate truth. Your challenges don't define you, how you deal with them does.

So are you ready to recover from reality?

Looking back, I think I looked at guys differently, but my, what's my other example of how other

guys look at guys? I don't know what they're actually feeling, so I only know it's going into my

mind. I don't know that it's abnormal and I don't know that I'm looking at guys in a way that

is sexual or is, or is yet different from the way the other guys view other guys, or heterogies

for you guys. So I didn't know. And then looking back, I'm like, it makes sense. Like, I'm like,

oh yeah, I definitely like Paul Walker, my baby boy, and like I definitely thought he was hot.

He's obsessed with them.

But then also it's weird about being gay, sometimes you're like, do I want to be that person?

Or do I need to be with that person? Yes, I so feel that.

I'm both. I want to be Paul Walker and I want to be with Paul Walker, I-P.

That was a quick clip from this week's episode with my best gay Jeff Abstein who's sitting

right here limping in the kitchen because he's an old man. I just can't even tell. We're both

Gemini's. We're both about to turn 31. And we feel very old. We're like limping. We're a mess.

Happy Pride. This was supposed to be a Q and A episode. And then Jeff and I just started

ranting and talking about our queer lives. And so we didn't get much Q and A done.

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