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Hey, this is Alexis Haines and welcome to Recovering from Reality,

where I illuminate the messy and magical path of coming home to yourself.

Whether you're on the road to recovery,

seeking self-care techniques for surviving the capitalist machine,

or just need a moment to remember that you're not alone in your loneliness,

we're serving up the ultimate truth.

Your challenges don't define you, how you deal with them does.

So are you ready to recover from reality?

I've already texted my old dealer there before I even left L.A.

Like it was all mapped out.

And you know, I changed my return flight three times because I still wasn't sober enough

in my mind to pull it off, you know, per se.

Knowing all the time I'm not going to pull this off, there's just no way.

This is the end. Everything is burning.

There's no putting out this fire.

So I get home, we get into a tiff.

My oldest daughter hates when we even jokingly kind of yell back and forth,

where like we're having a debate on Madonna or whatever it is.

And she's like, I don't like when you guys do that.

But my youngest daughter came to sit next to me and then she got away from me rather quickly.

And she said, you don't smell like my daddy.

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