If I drink, if I, if I drink less than six, right?

It's like, what's even the point of drinking?

You know, that's just a medical then under six is just medical.

Oh, yeah.

That's what they tell me at hospice anyway.

That's what they tell me at hospice.

I don't think you need to be in hospice, man.

I need to be in hospice.

I have generalized wasting away syndrome.

I don't have much time left.

I haven't had much time left for a long time.

And this shortage of time is really starting to weigh on.

Yeah, but didn't you have like a funeral in like 1982?

Everyone thought you were dead.

You know, that's when I first figured out about generalized dying disorder.

And I said, my doctor, my doctor said, just generally speaking, you're wasting away. I don't know what to tell you. And I said, there's terrible news. You know, that's terrible news. You know, he said, you need to stop drinking. and I said, you know, I'm not going to, you know, I'm not, you know, there's got, you know, you're a doctor.

Like, can you be more creative than that, you know?

And, uh, so he basically said, going to ever you know i'm not uh you know there's got you know you're a doctor like can you be more

creative than that you know and uh so he basically said you have to stop drinking and i said well i'm not

and he's like you your uh your gdd is going to keep getting worse and worse and worse and it has

and i've gotten closer and closer to death every year you know it really has been pulling me

pulling me you know into the abyss really it's really what it feels like is an abyss. I don't know. Dying sort of feels like an abyss, you know? I think if you're like religious, it feels like a party, you know, if you're like Christian or whatever. But I can never really get along with the Christians. I was more of a, more of a barfly type guy, you know, stinky kind of guy.

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