Good morning. I hope you guys are well. We are back for another episode and this one is

influenced by my night out the other day and I haven't actually been drinking. I think the last

when I went out was three months ago before Bali and I went out a couple of days ago and it just really made me like put all my

thoughts together in my head and I was like I need to share this and I did share a little bit on

my Instagram story and so many people like resonated with it and was like you need to talk

about this more so I was like you know what this is the next podcast episode because

i feel that you know it's so normalized these days to just that whole drinking culture and if you are

somewhat not a part of it people just don't understand and i don't feel like there's many of us

within a friendship group.

So this is like our way to bond and just like hold our ground, understand what's going on and just make you feel a little bit less alone.

And hopefully some things that can help you hold your ground.

I think the first thing to recognize is, and I haven't always been like this, like when I was,

I started drinking probably 15, like in England, that's pretty normal.

15, you know, having the bottles of vodka, whole bottle of wine to myself, like, the aims just

get absolutely, like, drunk. You're with guys,

you're with girls, like, yeah, so many times. And that then worked with where I was

mentally, spiritually in my journey. Like, I was a teenager. And I would say probably like the last year

has it slowly been like declining my want to drink alcohol. And it's very much aligned with

how I've been doing mentally. When I've been more self-aware and more conscious of

what's going on and working on my mental health, every time did I drink, I didn't really enjoy it

and I couldn't really get into it. I really questioned myself a lot because, let's say, for example, when me and my

boyfriend started going out, like at the beginning, like, our first date was like at a rave,

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