Welcome to the Refine Collective Podcast. I'm your host, Cat Harris.

This podcast is designed to hold space for honest conversations. From purity culture to faith,

sexuality, relationships, identity, culture, deconstruction, and more. My hope is to look

out in the face, be curious, seek God, and ask meaningful questions to address any elephant

in the room with openness, nuance, and grace. I won't pretend to be an expert and definitely

don't have all the answers. And though it may feel easier and more comfortable to exist

in the black and white, I invite you to discover God with me in the gray and unexpected spaces.

So whoever you are, whatever you do or don't believe, you are welcome here and have a seat

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Welcome to the Refine Collective Podcast. I am your host Cat Harris and a special thank you

and shout out to new stand studio at one rock center for producing this episode of the Refine

Collective. Thank you so, so much. You can go ahead and follow along with Rockefeller and see

what is going on in Manhattan, New York on Instagram at Rockefeller Center or on Twitter,

at Rock Center and YC. It's a Sunday morning and I woke up just feeling heavy.

I'm going through days where I still feel a lot of sadness about not dating the guy I was dating.

And I think I get into this like shame cycle when that happens because there will be days when I

don't think about it. More definitely days I don't think about them as much and feel like the

distance energetically growing between us and that feels like good and healthy.

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