And thank you so much for clicking on play. It is the nightly pleasure's podcast episode number.

I am your host and the author of the piece you're about to hear today, The Grey Knight. You can call me Jack.

Well, hello. How are you doing? It's the holiday season after a very, very, very long and very

rough year. And I'm here to give you a message of gratitude, a message of thanks. I have been

stuffed up my own ass this year, even more so than normal, but the ladies of the night have just been so kind and so patient with me, and really have encouraged me to keep coming back slowly on my own terms, but encourage me to do it all the same.

And it's been good.

I've been doing movies on the server every night.

I've been watching them.

It's been a lot of fun.

I read some advice before I decided that I should really try and turn all of the water wheel back on, intimidating as it feels right now.

And the advice was pretty simple.

To feel happier, you're supposed to try and feel connected to a community of people.

And I don't really have any other way to do that right now besides this.

I've been thinking about how to do it and how to do it well

and how to do it without anything getting too weird or too much from me.

And now I'm back.

So, thank you.

I promise it's not because I don't like the work, or because the work is too much for me.

It's because my emotional state is just not equipped for a lot of things.

Maybe I'll tell you more about that later, but for right now, I think the important thing to note is

I am back because I care for you. Don't get me wrong. What I just said about feeling better? That's true.

But I also am back because I care about you and your feelings. Things are very strange right now

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