Hi, friends, and welcome to a bite-sized fish episode. It's been a while since your girl has done a bite-sized

bish. And again, all of these podcasts are brought to you by Brady. So thank you, Brady, for your service.

Right now, I just wanted to give you guys some updates about what's been going on. I've been posting a little bit

on social media and of course on Patreon, letting everybody know. But I've just had a lot going on.

So number one, I wanted to share with folks that I made the announcement last week that I was going to be

doing more podcasts. And the day that I made that announcement, I had to make the difficult decision to put

my grandfather into hospice. For those of you who don't know or don't remember six months ago,

my grandmother, I had to put her into hospice. So my grandparents, I am their power of attorney,

their caretaker. They are, we're in assisted living,

like nursing home. It's like a, it's skilled nursing, ish. But when she died, my grandfather just

started to decompensate faster than I could keep up with. And I'm going to be mindful how much

I discuss it because he cannot consent to me sharing some things and, and all of that. And I'm going to be mindful how much I discuss it because he cannot consent to me sharing

some things and all of that. And so I want to be respectful. But just it's been a very, very

emotionally, physically challenging and exhausting week. With my grandmother, she was mentally capable

until the very end. And she was able to agree to

things, and she didn't fight me. But unfortunately, my grandfather is dealing with dementia. And because

of that, he is just not who he used to be. And that's not his fault, but it is presenting a lot of issues. And so I have literally

been scheduling evaluation after evaluation, getting service after service. There is not one service

that he doesn't have that's available, but sometimes it just still feels like I'm failing and

it's not enough. And so what started to happen

is I was having panic attacks, some of actually the worst that I've had in my adult life. And

when I talk to my therapist about it, literally, you know, she always knows what to say and how to say it.

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