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So as we're sitting here this morning, man, I'm feeling really raw this morning and I feel

unfocused. It was an emotional weekend with my mom.

So I was telling you guys last week that my mom has dementia.

We were never close.

My mom, as I told you guys last week,

and I'm almost to a point now of saturation talking about it. But my mom and I were never closed. My mom wasn't

very maternal. I would also lean on the word narcissistic. With me and both of my brothers, she just, my mom didn't know how to be a mom, right?

I mean, she'd go long periods of time, not talking to any of us.

So there wasn't this connection that a lot of you guys have thank God with your parents

that I just don't have but at the end of the day here she's still my mom she's in

New York City she has dementia her health has deteriorated quickly.

The last time I talked to her on the phone a couple of weeks ago was the very first time

that the dementia has gotten so bad that she didn't recognize who I was and I thought to myself oh man there's no part

of me at all that wants to go to New York and see her I thought I should go to New York and see her

but do it more out of obligation than anything else because it is my mom right?

So I kind of made a spontaneous trip up to New York over the weekend just because even though doctors have told me this also that

dementia doesn't really work like you just wake up one morning and the window

is closed I felt like that was assigned to me that the window is closing on my mom and I don't know how healthy she is and I don't

know how many more times I'm going to actually have with her.

So again I want to use the opportunity to say like I did what I could right for my mom

even though I wasn't feeling it and it even though it was total obligation I went

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