Half-Size Me audio blog number three, the wall, pushing out of the 200s into Wonderland.

I shared with my half-size-me community in a meeting that we had about my many dances around breaking past the 200-pound mark for the majority of my 20s.

I was constantly on and off diets and losing and gaining the same 30 to 50 pounds.

But there was one time I can remember extremely clearly because I got down to 202 pounds.

I could see the finish line.

I could taste it.

In reality, if I had gone extreme enough in my eating and exercise, I could have been under 200 pounds that week.

But then I gained all that way back and gone all the way up to 290 pounds.

Now I know I would never go back there now.

But then that was my reality.

One of my loyal listeners and my community members, I'm going to call her K for this, asked me a great question.

She wanted to know, how do I trust myself now to get back on track after having a slip-up

or over-indulgence?

She states, you said that you got yourself at one point to 202 and then went right back.

I wonder if you remember what your inner dialogue was then and what it is now under the guise

of this new trust. She had a little

struggle of her own and she wanted to know why it is she might be self-sabotaging and

binging before way-ins. What might her struggle be? So this was my response to her. I would love to

tell you that immediately following that event and after gaining all that weight, that I jumped right back into it and conquered my weight,

but that part of the story would not happen for many years.

I remember being freaked out by that number when I saw it, 202.

I wanted to be under 200, but I was scared at the same time.

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